Friday, May 27, 2005

I am not good at curling into a ball and my back hurts...

It appears that I am not very good at curling up into a ball. Perhaps this is because I am not perfectly flexible. But at any rate, its not working very well. Going into the corner or under the covers, on the other hand, are things I can deal with.

Things are on the up swing from their low this past week, but they still aren’t exceptionally good. I am no longer household enemy number one, but now my back is acting up, and other problems from the past are still happening. I also have a money issue, needing to get through next Thursday on an exceptionally tight budget. I am also rather sore.

Another thing that has been on my mind lately…well that a major understatement….is a person—I will leave out names for now (I might speak up later, and if you happen to know, please keep quiet until I announce it). I haven’t been able to get her off of my mind for a while now, and it is one of the most annoying things for a number of reasons. 1) I know a lot of reasons that it would never work out. 2) Honestly, I am afraid…of the unknown, of rejection. 3) This is not a fun thing to have nagging at the back of your mind. 4) It just is. 5) I am not even sure if I really like her or not, I just can’t get her out of my head. 6) I think if anything did happen, and things fell apart, it would be awkward.

Today I got to work for 8 hours, going through a 9 hour stretch where I got to sit down for exactly ten minutes…I don’t recommend doing it. I get to do the same thing tomorrow except that the stretch may be longer because there is a parade before I get to be so lucky as to go to work. Joy. But at least I get to earn money from it…which I receive next Thursday.

Also, I listen to some odd and sometimes unpopular music (stuff that other people don’t like). I haven’t done an opinion poll for this one, but I recently started listening to a little Bon Jovi, so if anyone knows some of his songs, just let me know.

Well that’s all for now. Please comment on this whether you know Bon Jovi songs, or have advice for me about this whole annoying deal with someone stuck in my head (at least she isn’t making like Athena and trying to get out). Also it would be amusing to see people speculate as to who this person who occupies my thoughts is. So if you would like to do any of the three (things I highly recommend), then respond or just talk to me over AIM or something. I would just ask that if I have told you who this person is (I think that is one or two people only) that you refrain from saying who it is.

Thanks.

Noodle out.

Monday, May 23, 2005

I am the family fuckup

Well as a couple of you know (I have talked to you online), it has been a long evening/afternoon for me. Basically, my mom went ballistic on me when she came home from work, yelling at me about laying in bed, using my laptop, using my laptop in general, not working on painting the house (even though its raining) and about not having a clean room. This was annoying to begin with, so I wrote an away message saying that I was pissed at my mom and that I was the family fuckup. So I get back to my dad's house tonight and am watching the Pistons/Heat basketball game when I find out that my mom is on the phone wanting to talk to me. I dont seem to recall much talking done by her.

She went ballistic on me for the second time in six hours, yelling at me about my room still not being clean (even though I had to come with my brother back to my dad's house), for leaving a light on and my computer on with that away message up (even though my brothers leave the house computer on when they sleep and when they go to school all day), for feeling like I am the family fuckup even though its a feeling being reinforced almost daily by her, for trying to catch up on sleep after being awaked six hours before when I thought I was working the day before and then working, for not painting (despite the rain), for not being perfect, for not knowing everything, for going to a good school, for giving her a form she asked for (one that she then left where I handed it to her, doing nothing with it), for the downstairs being messy even though I cleaned everything I used and took care of my things, and finally for not being able to work last week even though I told my boss when I was available for work something like six or seven times. If this isnt a way to shatter confidence, I dont know what is. half the things on the list that she gave me werent my fault, some were due to my brothers and one was even her fault, and then she gave me an earful about not talking to her about things even though I doubt pro boxers would talk to her when she was in a mood like she was today. Then she threatened to send me to a shitty state school nearby and accused me of failing classes at brandeis.

All of this makes for a wonderful evening, added to which is the fact that she is taking away internet, so I will be on maybe once or twice a week if I am lucky, and added to things that were already on the shitty side and that were pissing me off. Plus I have wisdom teeth coming in which is exceedingly painful, and a headache that refuses to leave. I managed to keep my compuse for the 15 minutes that she was reaming me out, but after that I lost it and had to be in my room for 45 before I managed to regain composure and be willing to come out into the house.

And now while I am writing this, this great big ball of happiness comes on:

Arnelio3: just thought id call you a homo before i went to bed
Arnelio3: night night fag
ElderNoodle: its been a long day, so just fuck off
Arnelio3: suck a dick you little cum bubble
Arnelio3: just sleep
Arnelio3: night
Arnelio3: i hope i didnt hurt the feelings?
Arnelio3: oh well who the fuck cares
Arnelio3: by the way nobody like you
Arnelio3: so go Fuck yourself

It is a damn good thing that I wont be really seeing anyone for the next couple of days ( well wednesday night anyway), becuase I have a feeling that I would wipe the floor with the first person that pisses me off just to take out frustration.

I guess itll be working out doing things I loathe that will keep me sane (pushups and crunches and maybe running).

Noodle out.

Sunday, May 22, 2005

What is wrong with cute?

So sue me if I think cute is attractive.

In other news, my mouth hurts.

And I go back to work tomorrow

Is it possible to sell your heart in return for another heart?

The darkness swirls. watching, waiting. Consuming.

There is nothing left.

I give up.
I quit
Finished
Fuck you
Go away

Noodle out.

Friday, May 20, 2005

Some people are just assholes...

So today I operated on six hours of sleep because it was very eary when I got back from Star Wars, and then I had to be up at about 10 to get ready and go into Montpelier to get fingerprinted for teaching. I had a lot of time to think about things while I was driving to and from town, and the thinking was a little good and a little bad, but thats life. So I get back and start watching movies on TBS...first Beverly Hills Ninja, and then Major League 2, and I start receiving IMs from this kid (if you have his screenname, then you will know him, but otherwise I think that I will just as soon not say his name). This is a person who graduated from Hazen about two years before I did, and is now dating someone who I was introduced to by a friend who goes to UVM. I vaguely know this person, but never have been friends or even really acquainted with him.

The conversation went something like this:

Arnelio3 (1:00:57 AM): what the fuck homo
Auto response from ElderNoodle (1:00:57 AM): Now why the fuck would I want to talk to you?
Arnelio3 (1:01:11 AM): cause your ahomo
Arnelio3 (1:01:51 AM): domt be a bitch and talk like a man
Arnelio3 (1:03:00 AM): your afucking pussy
Arnelio3 (1:03:06 AM): be a man
Arnelio3 (1:03:25 AM): you have atar wars as your idele
Arnelio3 (1:03:31 AM): who the fuck does that
Arnelio3 (1:04:05 AM): your a fucking faggot and everyone thinks the same
Arnelio3 (1:04:29 AM): why dont youkill yourself
Arnelio3 (1:04:58 AM): you havve ni friends
Arnelio3 (1:05:05 AM): no
Arnelio3 (1:05:16 AM): kill yourself
Arnelio3 (1:05:46 AM): respond bitch
Arnelio3 (1:06:00 AM): why r u suck a cunt?

This was the entire conversation, and I never once responded to him (the auto response was my idle message). Basically my impression of him is that he is an asshole, and that he is sorta lucky that I am not a violent person, because if I was the type to physically respond to something like that, I could probably hurt him fairly badly.

Well I guess thats just about it, but I would just like to say that some people are assholes.

Noodle out.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

I dont feel like telling you what I will be writing about...

WARNING!!! TALKS ABOUT SOME PLOT EVENTS OF STAR WARS EPISODE 3

*falls to knees and kow tows for Natalie Portman*

Well, I just got back from star wars (the midnight showing) and I will start off with this--there were some amazing fight scenes, and when there were no fight scenes on the screen, then I got to do my best not to drool over one of the most beautiful people on earth (ok, so it wasnt that bad, but still, I know a couple of girls and more than a few guys who would give quite a bit for that person to ask them to hold her...or have her babies for her). Furthermore, after some careful consideration, I would rate her among the top, if not the most beautiful person I can think of, and when all is said and done, she is more attractive than Catherine Zeta Jones (and while I know that I repeat myself, Catherine is also and older lady who has kept herself looking good despite her age, but Natalie is better).

In my personal opinion, Episode 3 far surpasses 1 and 2 in many ways, but was not the best movie I have recently seen. I will start with this. R2 D2 is the most amazing thing in existance. Second, Yoda comes close. Third, I'm not a girl nor am I gay, so I cant speak for everyone when I say this, but Anakin is definately sexier after his makeover than before. I mean come on, he has the black thing going, he is now bald, which could be a plus, most of his functions are now automated so he can dedicate his full attention to the person, I mean where can you really go wrong? I also feel obligated to say that my impression of Anakin's first dream is that he gets sick to his stomach thinking about Padme in labor. We also know now where Luke gets his temper tantrums/whiny ways, and where Leia gets her hairstyling tips. Finally, I would just like to say (for those who have seen the movie already) that R2 so could have taken the robot general.

Now that I have watched the movie, there are severals indiscrepencies that I have seen between this movie and the events in the original trilogy. The problems that this movie created for many of the books are even worse, but seeing as many people havent read those, I wont go into them, but if you would like to discuss them with me at somepoint, feel free to IM me about it. My first major problem was that Ben Kenobi's ghost talks to Luke and tells him that Darth Vader killed and murdered Anakin, and while true, he also indicates to Luke that it was Darth Vader who was his apprentice (that he was already called Darth Vader), giving the impression that the whole Darth Vader as a name for longer than about two days before the formation of the Empire. This is obviously wrong seeing as the name Darth is the sign of a Sith Lord and if Kenobi was training a guy named Darth, then something went wrong along the way.

Second, Leia describes to Luke their mother, saying that she was beautiful (ummm...I concur) and sad (makes sense...she sorta went through a rough time in her marriage, abusive husband and all), but the problem with this is that she died in childbirth, so either Leia is some sort of super child or something doesnt line up. Luke should have seen the same amount of their mother as Leia, and now that I have seen this, I feel that Leia is just full of shit.

Next, the second Death Star was constructed much quicker than the first was, seeing as the first begins construction at the end of this movie and doesnt get finished until just before episode 4, a span of a minimum of about 18 years. The second one takes less than three to make, and even though it wasnt finished, it was close enough. The timelines dont quite match.

This next one isnt so much a discrepancy as a comment. The empire really doesnt last that long even though people make it out to be such a long and terrible thing. According to my best guess, the minimum the empire lasts is 20 years and the maximum is 25...not very long for a group with such a huge military force.

On the whole, I beleive that the filming of the movie was well done with some exceptions that are as much the actual script as anything else. My first beef with it is the killing of the children, I know that it is supposed to be 'Anakin's big evil act', but it was still a bit over the top in my impression and that they probably could have done without it. The second beef was in the killing of the Jedi, the female alien jedi with a decent body on the flowery planet didn't need to be shot repeatedly after she was down...none of the others were or were shown to have been, but laser blasts kept going over her body after she was down in that case and it bothered me...they might as well have been raped after going down for the amoung of respect they showed her.

I also would have laughed after Mace Windu went down if instead of calling Palpatine 'my lord' if Anakin had called him 'O Toasted One'

I think I have said enough about star wars...nope. Yoda is cool, R2 D2 is awesome, Mace is the only one who could pull of a purple light saber and Natalie Portman is gorgeous/stunning/beautiful and more amazing than words can express. I think that I am going overboard and that I am exceedingly tired, but she is gorgeous.

Noodle out.

PS Natalie Portman....

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Katie Holmes is gorgeous...

So here I sit in my boxers on the couch and its not yet noon. I have my breakfast ramen and a cup of koolaid (the only thing besides water and soda in the house), and I am flipping through the tv channels waiting for people to get up and then BAM! there is dawsons creek and katie holmes. And all I have to say to that is that she is amazingly gorgeous (yes, Lynn and Nomi if you want to argue with me about that one, feel free...you do it to everyone else I think is gorgeous). Natalie Portman is also great, but I cant go into detail other than seeing a trailer for star wars yesterday.

It has been pretty dull back here at home...people are at high school, I dont have a car and then I haven't started to work again yet. Blah. On the bright side, I feel like I have finally started to feel like I fit in again...a little more each day. And it is starting to warm up again slowly but surely.

I should really stop typing and watching tv and go clean my room or something seeing as at the moment it is a fire hazard. Oh well. It will wait.

Oh well. I think thats about it.

Noodle out.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Its a good thing that Disney doesnt care...

Pocahontas would be a much worse movie (yes I know I watch weird things when I have nothing better to do) if it followed the real story. For one thing, they wouldnt have been able to communicate within moments of meeting each other because they lacked a common language. For another, John Smith wouldnt have been the heroic character he was portrayed to be...rather he would have been a calculating mercenary, caring about money as much as anything. Furthermore, Pocahontas would have not ended up wishing she was with him, but rather marrying some other greedy english bastard.

So anyway, today I get to go home--my mom will be here in about 5 hours...8 AM, and I just finished packing everythign I can before tomorrow. We will see how well the morning goes because I know I will be hungry, tired and cranky. Oh well

Goodnight to all and to all a goodnight.

Night everyone who is sleeping/will be sleeping and for Nomi, GO TO BED!!! (yes I realize taht you dont have a computer right now and wont see this until well after it is a moot point).

Noodle out.

Friday, May 06, 2005

Dont hate me...please?

The churchman spoke with such a calm reassurance at my marriage. He tied the expensive purple silk ribbon across my hand and then tied it around Cornelia's as well. The silk that represented everything about our union--the money, the royalty, and it felt cool against my skin. I didnt love her. Why should I. I needed her for power. Her father would provide swords that would aid me in time as her brothers would provide me with champions and loyal guards. Bah. I hated her with a passion. A dull, witless girl who knew nothing of the outside. If only I didnt need her father.

The man who was marrying us droned on. I wasnt really listening. I was thinking of Alena and what I could do with the swords that Cornelia brought with her. What a shame she had to die. I had it prepared and the thought of it encouraged me. I could go through with this, and keep Alena and the swords. Ah the power that I could end up with from this! I believe that that cursed churchman was approaching the end of his ramblings.

"And til death do you part." The ending to the marriage sermon made me laugh internally and give a small smile to my bride. Til death do you part indeed. The ceremony ended and I kept up my smile through receiving the congratulations of her entire family...and what a blastedly large one she belonged to. They seemed overjoyed that the Duke Glorach was smiling with true pleasure, and I was happy to oblige, even if it was their swords rather than their daughter that pleased me.

I ate scantily at the feast held in our honor following the ceremony, but helped myself to a fair portion of wine. My bride ate scantily as well, but often chatted happily with her brothers and their wives, while I mainly restricted myself to talking with her father. The old fool was a dunce, but a powerful one. His sons were accomplished fighters, if not generals, although he was nothing to speak of. At one point he mentioned the real possibility of his daughter dying before her time..well specifically in childbirth..and announced to me and all those around me that if that were to happen, he would not abandon me if it were to happen and that I was now to be treated as one of his sons. He boasted that I was something special and that he would ride my coattails to glory. I bet the fool couldnt see something special if it hit him in the face.

The meal thankfully ended quickly with guests retiring to the quarters and the great dunce himself demanding that I go to bed his daughter with all haste. I wished to do nothing of the sort, but for my plan to work, I needed to be in the bedchamber regardless, so I went.

On my way to the bedchamber that had been readied for Cornelia and myself, I thought of the army that I had just acquired. Already the foremost military strategist in the kingdom, my only shortage was in soldiers. This marriage brought along nearly 20,000 to add to my current veteran group of 5,000. These soldiers should be enough to accomplish what I want, even if they could still easily be outnumbered 2 to 1. The thought of it aroused me far more than the thought of Cornelia did. This is what I had been waiting for. All that was left was to remove Cornelia.

I approached the door to the bed chamber and walked into the large room that contained a single broad window and the massive bed that was covered in skins..and my wife, boltin the door behind me with a beam that strained my muscles to move. She quickly unclothed herself and moved to do the same to me, when I made no move to do so. It was then that the man entered through the window, dagger in hand. I smiled, thinking how I had hired this man to kill my wife, but had no intention of letting him do so. His look grew to one of confusion as I threw Cornelia to the side and drew my sword, and, in a few brief strokes cut the would be assassin to the ground.

Seeing this act of chivalry, Cornelia rose from where I had thrown her and attempted to push herself against me..an act that so disgusted me that I pushed her away immediately and laughed out loud. She stared at me in horror as I took the knife that was weilded by the assassin and dragged her to the door. Standing behind her, I gagged her so that she couldnt scream and then drove the knife into her back, once, twice and a third time to make sure that she died.

I then replaced the knife near the body of the dead assassin, took the gag from Cornelia's mouth and unblocked the door. My body was only for Alena.

Once out of the bed chamber, I rushed to Cornelia's father to tell him the news. The lackwit took what I said for the truth..he had not seen anything to the contrary, and all of the evidence was there. He swore to me that I would have his full aid in the future, esspecially if my first blow would fall towards the homeland of the assassin. Inwardly I thought of the irony of this statement, while with my lips, promising the angered father that I would indeed strike there first, despite it being the largest of my neighbors. As if to cement his goodwill, I kissed Cornelia on the lips for the second time at her funeral in full view of her entire family. As I kissed her, I thought: Thank you Cornelia. Your death released me and gave me what I needed.

Monthes later, I had retrained all 20,000 troops that came with my dowry and had marched them along with my veterans against Nepthal, my largest neighbor and the homeland of the sacrificial assassin. My troops were outnumbered more than 2 to 1 on the battlefield that day, but were much better trained than my opponents, and more importantly, I was better than my counterpart.

The day began poorly as the enemy skirmishers drove mine from the field immediately and began to concentrate on my infantry that held the center of the line. I began taking casualties immediately, but discipline held and my infantry ground forward, a slow, deadly mass moving as one. On the wings, I held back most of my cavalry for the earth shattering charge that would be the deciding factor. The remainder I broke into two parts and sent them on a long ride around the rear of the enemy so that I would catch any defense they prepared in the rear, destroying thier hope. Cornelia's brothers led these forces around behind, wanting to be among the first to strike a blow against our enemy.

My infantry halted when the enemy charged. The archers behind them loosed and the charge dissipated somewhat. The archers continued to fire into the oncoming mass as my infantry patiently awaited the enemy soldiers, their spears held at ready. Hell broke loose when the two masses collided, my phalanx wavering initially, then steadying and finally grinding forward into the mass of enemy soldiers. The signal went up and within seconds, the cavalry on my flanks broke forward into a raging river of horsemen, sweeping up the enemy flank, driving the infantry back from the sides of my phalanx and crashing into the main mass of enemy soldiers. My personal guard drove with me straight at the opposing lord, intent on catching him, slashing at those in my way, but otherwise making straight for him. At the same time, the cavalry I sent around to the enemy rear drove into the mass, cutting down all those who stood in their path.

Suddenly, I was on top of the my opponent, locking swords with him, forcing him to the ground where he knelt down where he fell, begging for mercy. The enemy troops flooding away from the feild of my victory, I dismounted from my horse. As I did so, I let out a menacing laugh, sending a dark cloud of fear into all of those around me. This sniviling lordling begged for his life, he appealed to my sense of family, of decency, of chivalry, of family ties. At the end, he was quivering from fear and it was all he could do to keep from soiling himself. By this time, many of my men were laughing as well, and Cornelia's eldest brother (A man I decided I liked, as he seemed to follow many of the same philosophies as myself) indicated to me that he wished for this man to be disposed of. I readily agreed and without allowing further appeal, I announced that his terms were unnacceptable and he was expendable. I drove my sword through the back of his neck and as I removed it, he crumpled to the ground at my feet.

My first step to power was accomplished. The world would cower before me and tremble at the sound of my name.

Noodle out.

PS I am in a terrible mood, fighting a losing battle, and the main character in the story IS NOT ME by any stretch of the imagination.

Monday, May 02, 2005

Hmmm....browsing old emails.

I want the Spurs game over so I can go to bed. Damnit why did it need to go to overtime. Anyway, I was browsing through my old emails and I found an old quiz that Richard sent me (or two or three) and basically, this is what I found:







Find your Role-Playing
Stereotype
at mutedfaith.com.

I also discovered that I will be ending up in the eighth level of hell. Also in an unrelated link, I discoved I am worth 2, 300,000 dollars. So if anyone is willing to pay, I am yours.

Well I suppose thats about it...nothing interesting is happening, except that I have to get up at 8 tomorrow--friggin early exams, to take my Roman history exam so that I can go back to bed or study for my Midieval history exam.

Noodle out.

PS History is written by the victors ~Winston Churchill