I am the family fuckup

Well as a couple of you know (I have talked to you online), it has been a long evening/afternoon for me. Basically, my mom went ballistic on me when she came home from work, yelling at me about laying in bed, using my laptop, using my laptop in general, not working on painting the house (even though its raining) and about not having a clean room. This was annoying to begin with, so I wrote an away message saying that I was pissed at my mom and that I was the family fuckup. So I get back to my dad's house tonight and am watching the Pistons/Heat basketball game when I find out that my mom is on the phone wanting to talk to me. I dont seem to recall much talking done by her.

She went ballistic on me for the second time in six hours, yelling at me about my room still not being clean (even though I had to come with my brother back to my dad's house), for leaving a light on and my computer on with that away message up (even though my brothers leave the house computer on when they sleep and when they go to school all day), for feeling like I am the family fuckup even though its a feeling being reinforced almost daily by her, for trying to catch up on sleep after being awaked six hours before when I thought I was working the day before and then working, for not painting (despite the rain), for not being perfect, for not knowing everything, for going to a good school, for giving her a form she asked for (one that she then left where I handed it to her, doing nothing with it), for the downstairs being messy even though I cleaned everything I used and took care of my things, and finally for not being able to work last week even though I told my boss when I was available for work something like six or seven times. If this isnt a way to shatter confidence, I dont know what is. half the things on the list that she gave me werent my fault, some were due to my brothers and one was even her fault, and then she gave me an earful about not talking to her about things even though I doubt pro boxers would talk to her when she was in a mood like she was today. Then she threatened to send me to a shitty state school nearby and accused me of failing classes at brandeis.

All of this makes for a wonderful evening, added to which is the fact that she is taking away internet, so I will be on maybe once or twice a week if I am lucky, and added to things that were already on the shitty side and that were pissing me off. Plus I have wisdom teeth coming in which is exceedingly painful, and a headache that refuses to leave. I managed to keep my compuse for the 15 minutes that she was reaming me out, but after that I lost it and had to be in my room for 45 before I managed to regain composure and be willing to come out into the house.

And now while I am writing this, this great big ball of happiness comes on:

Arnelio3: just thought id call you a homo before i went to bed
Arnelio3: night night fag
ElderNoodle: its been a long day, so just fuck off
Arnelio3: suck a dick you little cum bubble
Arnelio3: just sleep
Arnelio3: night
Arnelio3: i hope i didnt hurt the feelings?
Arnelio3: oh well who the fuck cares
Arnelio3: by the way nobody like you
Arnelio3: so go Fuck yourself

It is a damn good thing that I wont be really seeing anyone for the next couple of days ( well wednesday night anyway), becuase I have a feeling that I would wipe the floor with the first person that pisses me off just to take out frustration.

I guess itll be working out doing things I loathe that will keep me sane (pushups and crunches and maybe running).

Noodle out.